Yesterday while driving in to work and thumbing through CDs (finally growing tired of Mojo Magazine’s Dreamers mix of tracks inspired by Kate Bush), I found Band on the Run. The line, “And the first one says to the second one there, ‘I hope you’re having fun.’” is one of my favorite lines. And I realized […]Read more "I’m Still Here: A Survivor’s Guide to Optimism."
As I ascended to street level from the staircase of the subway from the Grand blue line stop, the smell of candles filled my nostrils. It was a delightful smell; in fact, one of my favorite scents of all is that of a freshly-extinguished candle. It was like a glimmer of hope burning to remind […]Read more "The Candle Wick Lights the Autumn Sky"
Still she haunts me phantomwise, Alice moving under skies, Never seen by waking eyes. – “Boat Beneath a Sunny Sky” from Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll During my senior year of college in 2010, I had a dream that I was standing in the middle of a giant dome building with white walls and bright natural […]Read more "Failure to Ascend: Trapped in the Staircase"
Tonight I visited a place where friends have been telling me to go for years. And it was just as magical as I always knew it would be. Although I am still building my collective, it felt like I found a place where I am surrounded by the people I love most in the world. […]Read more "Welcome Home: We Are All in This Together."
How can I say this? I think it is intensely invaluable for people (human beings) to learn their own style of loving, how they love and how they want to be loved. I think this is important because this forms an extremely useful template for so much insight for everything else that a person does […]Read more "Learn How you Love: Catching the Big Fish."
Hidden places are of course internal and external and both literal and figurative. So the literal hidden place is both Toni Patisserie and the Cultural Center. These were the places where I met and fell in love with an artist, with my city of origin, and most crucially with myself again. And the figurative hidden […]Read more "Hidden Places: Final Reflections"
Yesterday was a really extraordinary day. It started out good and just got better and better. It was also my father’s birthday! My father has kind of been a spirit guide for me in my life. Ever since I was a child, we would have long conversations about living out a life of meaning. I […]Read more "And Suddenly Everything Starts Falling into Place."
I think this part of the city is called Noble Square, but perhaps I just projected that fiction because it seemed too delightful not to be so. It is that little area on Milwaukee southeast from Wicker Park (the main hipster stretch) and before it hits River West and the west loop. I love the […]Read more "Weekday Afternoon in a Chicago Bakery and Swing Dancing on a Hill by the River"
I recently decided to make a list of all of the people in my life who I know truly care about and desire for my happiness. I was amazed by how long the list became, and by the people who I thought to put on it. There are about six people on the list who […]Read more "The Alterity of the Self-Aware Lover Emerges: Part 2"
There is something strangely cathartic about seeing your own smirking face in a headshot while it lights up in flames. I have been modeling professionally for 7 years cumulatively. I started when I was 18 as a means of self-exploration because I felt like my outward appearance did not match how I felt myself to […]Read more "Letting go: How I became a retired model."